Mentally unwell content creators from around the internet.

Started by Mass Graven Image, December 03, 2023, 10:07:53 PM

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Mass Graven Image

Like many people, the world of mental disease and abnormal psychology is an intriguing and expansive subject, with numerous documentary films, podcasts, lectures and unending literature on the subject. I began to wonder after stumbling purely by accident about how many people are out there creating content which is fucking insane, demonstrably so because of the content that they make for the world. Often, people who are markedly whack jobs are on a schizophrenic mission from god, or painfully cringe due to being terminally autistic. The point of the thread is that I doubt I am the only person on this forum who has stumbled onto some true gold mines of bizarre, amusing, puzzling, freighting and interesting uploads like I have over time. So feel free to share. Some of the videos are taken from the hosting site and uploaded to my yutuub
for easy embedding on the forum, links to video source provided below.
~regards M.G.I.

Also, I am mentally deranged. enjoy



TheGrocksAlphaOmega


TheGroxt1

FrequencyFence

FrequencyFence


Paul Tachie
https://www.bitchute.com/video/5ZyKMM0fVHQH/


#TheGame23 # 93LVXNOX934dalulz93 #ctf007 #rakka
https://www.bitchute.com/video/RcpXYm5I8wdH/


D.2.A.M
https://www.bitchute.com/video/o1sisbHBph8S/

WhiteBatmobile






Balor/SS1535

Here is my favorite---9 hour livestream rants about passing cars:

state_of_exception

Great thread. The subject has fascinated me from a very young age when I first stumbled upon gang stalking and targeted individual blogs. It was easy to see, even then, that the similarities between delusions always took on a particular character which I now recognize as the hallmark of schizophrenia/manic episodes. Now, working with clients who often are suffering from combined homelessness and substance abuse, I've become more adept at recognizing the patterns in speech and writing that continually crop up in long-form rambling essays and videos.

Of those who make videos in the TI/gangstalking community, there are more creators than stars in the known universe. Moreover, as one might imagine individuals with paranoid delusions often do, these channels and videos often get deleted overnight. Given the privileged position we have as the viewer, I can't help but think of the following and demise of Terry A. Davis and Temple OS. Occasionally, for one reason or another, these individuals gain notoriety as a spectacle, but often times the end, like for so many who struggle with mental health, is the same.

I've saved a couple, however, that for one reason or another have kept my attention:


Matthew Urzua-Road To Sobriety

Self-described recovered meth addict chronicling his recovery and journey with faith. The few comments on the videos reply in kind with scripture passages and support.

Matthew, in the bathroom, describing his philosophy of "negativeism".
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hqIVS2YD-Iw

Matthew speaking on healing and judgement.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0JGsbDtOHE

Tony Chase ( I am not gay not never)
He's not gay. He is terrorized by the Satellite Man.
https://youtu.be/VTScbB-lTb8?si=pbYZLWqlkj8dLDfS

helpwithadvice
Perhaps the account I most wonder about, given the last post being 9 nears ago. It is a couple who believe they are being psychically attacked with plasma and a "military weapons system." Throughout their really sporadic uploads they film themselves suffering from various "attacks" and the effects that the attacks have had on their bodies. While obviously unwell mentally, on some level I can't help but wonder if there has ever been a case of someone's delusions being correct but discredited on account of their illness. Much of their videos speak to aeresolized chemicals leaching into the environment and livestock, and, while VERY unlikely, it wouldn't be the first time American citizens have suffered from the results of government projects (see: consequences of atomic testing in the desert).

Evidence for so-called chemical weapons and electronic weapon systems in use
https://youtu.be/qfA2aHX6ABM?si=qi_BYJcV--vR8Dnw
Evidence of weapons systems being used in the home, resulting in shattered teeth
https://youtu.be/uy3NHtYqTOg?si=Q81Xt89ELfux18hW
Footage of the wife suffering from nausea and vomiting following increased "signal" activity
https://youtu.be/2bl9wmlWSK8?si=MPhYja7-EcI5_PVf


Off of YouTube, Tumblr used to be a safe haven for self-harm content although much of this has disappeared altogether following the company's move away from not-safe-for-work content. Like the eating disorder content on there, it was a sea of young women posting "inspirational" images or images that reflected their emotions followed by stomach-wrenching photographs of their bodies. Of these, @coldnessinmyheart was the worst. Most of their photos are still available to my knowledge, having been archived by other internet users. They're bad. Not so much individual lacerations but a patchwork of near bone-deep gashes up and down all exposed flesh. I genuinely have no idea if she's still alive, but, given the severity of the wounds, it wouldn't be a surprise if, intentionally or not, the self-harm had ended her life.

On a different note, most things written or recorded by school shooters are unintentionally hilarious. Given the nature of shooting defenseless children, it is thus fitting that most of the creative and personal material left in their wake is less the ramblings of a remorseless killer and moreso what you might find in a teenage girl's LiveJournal.

Randy Stair's
amateur YouTube career, both leading up to and following his obsession with a Nickelodeon cartoon character for which he would go on a rampage at his workplace, is chronicled here:
https://archive.org/details/RandyStair/%24100+Spent+on+a+Soda+(2004)+-+The+Lost+Tapes.mp4

Notably though, this concludes with the "Westborough High Massacre"--a failed attempt at animating a school shooting, foiled by his choice of animators who ended up sticking him with the unfinished animation which he hastily cobbled together with stick figure and notebook drawings
https://archive.org/details/TheWestboroughHighMassacreegsGoodbye

One-act play written by Seung-Hui Cho titled "Richard McBeef" for a class. The prospect of him sitting down and penning this is hilarious.
https://schoolshooters.info/sites/default/files/Richard%20McBeef.pdf

Finally, while I'd argue he's less so mentally unwell and more so creatively gifted beyond measure, Anthony Jeffrey's output as Tonetta I hold near and dear to my heart, While his music stands on its own as ahead-of-its-time psych-rock, the music videos and art are a garish masterclass in muscle-bound glam transvestism and there's really nothing quite like it. He's also , last I checked, a recluse who also paints with his shit. I still would give anything for an official release of his music.

Music video for "My bro"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7MecwLnw24

Music video for "Can't wait to make love"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2iKNZGOD1k

Balor/SS1535

Quote from: state_of_exception on December 05, 2023, 03:04:26 AMGreat thread. The subject has fascinated me from a very young age when I first stumbled upon gang stalking and targeted individual blogs. It was easy to see, even then, that the similarities between delusions always took on a particular character which I now recognize as the hallmark of schizophrenia/manic episodes. Now, working with clients who often are suffering from combined homelessness and substance abuse, I've become more adept at recognizing the patterns in speech and writing that continually crop up in long-form rambling essays and videos.

Of those who make videos in the TI/gangstalking community, there are more creators than stars in the known universe. Moreover, as one might imagine individuals with paranoid delusions often do, these channels and videos often get deleted overnight. Given the privileged position we have as the viewer, I can't help but think of the following and demise of Terry A. Davis and Temple OS. Occasionally, for one reason or another, these individuals gain notoriety as a spectacle, but often times the end, like for so many who struggle with mental health, is the same.

I've saved a couple, however, that for one reason or another have kept my attention:


Matthew Urzua-Road To Sobriety

Self-described recovered meth addict chronicling his recovery and journey with faith. The few comments on the videos reply in kind with scripture passages and support.

Matthew, in the bathroom, describing his philosophy of "negativeism".
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hqIVS2YD-Iw

Matthew speaking on healing and judgement.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C0JGsbDtOHE

Tony Chase ( I am not gay not never)
He's not gay. He is terrorized by the Satellite Man.
https://youtu.be/VTScbB-lTb8?si=pbYZLWqlkj8dLDfS

helpwithadvice
Perhaps the account I most wonder about, given the last post being 9 nears ago. It is a couple who believe they are being psychically attacked with plasma and a "military weapons system." Throughout their really sporadic uploads they film themselves suffering from various "attacks" and the effects that the attacks have had on their bodies. While obviously unwell mentally, on some level I can't help but wonder if there has ever been a case of someone's delusions being correct but discredited on account of their illness. Much of their videos speak to aeresolized chemicals leaching into the environment and livestock, and, while VERY unlikely, it wouldn't be the first time American citizens have suffered from the results of government projects (see: consequences of atomic testing in the desert).

Evidence for so-called chemical weapons and electronic weapon systems in use
https://youtu.be/qfA2aHX6ABM?si=qi_BYJcV--vR8Dnw
Evidence of weapons systems being used in the home, resulting in shattered teeth
https://youtu.be/uy3NHtYqTOg?si=Q81Xt89ELfux18hW
Footage of the wife suffering from nausea and vomiting following increased "signal" activity
https://youtu.be/2bl9wmlWSK8?si=MPhYja7-EcI5_PVf


Off of YouTube, Tumblr used to be a safe haven for self-harm content although much of this has disappeared altogether following the company's move away from not-safe-for-work content. Like the eating disorder content on there, it was a sea of young women posting "inspirational" images or images that reflected their emotions followed by stomach-wrenching photographs of their bodies. Of these, @coldnessinmyheart was the worst. Most of their photos are still available to my knowledge, having been archived by other internet users. They're bad. Not so much individual lacerations but a patchwork of near bone-deep gashes up and down all exposed flesh. I genuinely have no idea if she's still alive, but, given the severity of the wounds, it wouldn't be a surprise if, intentionally or not, the self-harm had ended her life.

On a different note, most things written or recorded by school shooters are unintentionally hilarious. Given the nature of shooting defenseless children, it is thus fitting that most of the creative and personal material left in their wake is less the ramblings of a remorseless killer and moreso what you might find in a teenage girl's LiveJournal.

Randy Stair's
amateur YouTube career, both leading up to and following his obsession with a Nickelodeon cartoon character for which he would go on a rampage at his workplace, is chronicled here:
https://archive.org/details/RandyStair/%24100+Spent+on+a+Soda+(2004)+-+The+Lost+Tapes.mp4

Notably though, this concludes with the "Westborough High Massacre"--a failed attempt at animating a school shooting, foiled by his choice of animators who ended up sticking him with the unfinished animation which he hastily cobbled together with stick figure and notebook drawings
https://archive.org/details/TheWestboroughHighMassacreegsGoodbye

One-act play written by Seung-Hui Cho titled "Richard McBeef" for a class. The prospect of him sitting down and penning this is hilarious.
https://schoolshooters.info/sites/default/files/Richard%20McBeef.pdf

Finally, while I'd argue he's less so mentally unwell and more so creatively gifted beyond measure, Anthony Jeffrey's output as Tonetta I hold near and dear to my heart, While his music stands on its own as ahead-of-its-time psych-rock, the music videos and art are a garish masterclass in muscle-bound glam transvestism and there's really nothing quite like it. He's also , last I checked, a recluse who also paints with his shit. I still would give anything for an official release of his music.

Music video for "My bro"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7MecwLnw24

Music video for "Can't wait to make love"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2iKNZGOD1k


The stuff from @coldnessinmyheart is so serious it almost looks fake.


FallOfNature

Timothy Byrne. Unsure if he still posts on youtube, and probably shouldn't look up his twitter from work.

Balor/SS1535

Here are some fascinating reviews posted under the Internet Archive's upload of Threads (1984):
QuotePEOPLE, GET REAL IF YOU ARE NOT CRAZY AND NOT CREATING SOMETHING THAT IS COMPLETE ANTI OBAMA GAY MARRIAGE ANTI PORNOGRAPHIC AND PRO HANS BELLMER ART AND PRO HARRY STURGEON ART AND PRO URN ZURN ART BY NOW YOU ARE PART OF THE FUCKING CHILD PORNOGRAPHIC SEX TRAFFICKING ON THE GLOBAL SCALE PROBLEM!!!!!

signed,

someone who will DO SOMETHING REAL AT LEAST TO SAVE THE FUCKED UP WORLD WE ARE ALL LIVING IN

like comfort animales at petted zoos sooo fucking comfortable sitting around in on everywhere I see looking with their glazed eyes that since everyone is okay with that then its okay not TO DO ONE FUCKING DAMN THING ABOUT IT!!!WTF WAKE UP AMERICA! WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCKING PUT YOUR PART INTO IT AND THREW IN THE GOD DAMN WRENCH INTO THE CIRCUITS OF THE INTERNET PORN SEX WORLD ALREADY!!!! DESTROY THE ENGINE OF THE MONSTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Quotea terrible nucleus, eats into the eggs and cat food sausages of pubescent English lumpen biscuit and insect swarm clouds out of the fire.


The obelisk slab dimension of great dead man worms petrified then rained forth over their heads tiny precious radioactive gobs of jewels then drooped spent like the 7th cancerous finger.

of my eggs.

For it is the end which is the beginning. And this end is the one that eliminates all being.


And now, all of you, beings, I have to tell you that you have always made me shit. Go form a swarm of the pussy of infestation, of Einstein's crab lice of Oppenheimer 's cancer year finger.

Mama meat in the fire! Teeth!

QuoteTHIS internet Porn infested world you find online is nothing but children worshiping the Penis of men erected and pointing into the sky like nuclear war missles and children worshiping war by performing fellatio oral sex on them....its what i see in the eyes of an artist...when i draw it out people are disgusted by it and spit on me and try to kill me but when they see the actual porn they brag and smoke ice to watch it over and over....something i saw and something i drew afterwards...
not too long ago, perhaps it was last year...in this god awful part of town where the government in the USA has me living in a junky infested apartment community....i was randomly trying to find some inspiration on my obama phone to listen to or to watch or to read...


and this is what i saw and i will describe it as because I can not download my art my drawings on here, besides, i thiink i already threw away that drawing journal book already....


AFterwards, after what i saw what was only seven minutes on my obama phone I ran out into the streets to wait for the bus to head back into town...

the drawing , im going to describe it as much as I can with out..well, its my drawing and its difficult for anyone, especially the creator of the drawing to desribe what the drawing was about..


in the middle of ,,,or the center of the drawins is a plague of giant German NUclear missles....war heads...all snuggled up together with stripes and pointing all in one direction..its like a war scene drarwing of a nuclear Haulacaust,


around the missle gated zone are giant heads worshiping and idolizing the Nuclear MIssle heads by performing felllatio on them

like giant little girls licking daddys big dick


just like that

my drawing took shape outside in the bus stop that afternoon

my eyes turned bloody red with grief and pain and sadness


oh god why would the world do this to children?

make them lick nuclear war head missles like popscycle heads?


i wish i still had the drawing , it was on my medication self healing treatment which the USA and the world has done away with because they do no like the art that I produce


its rather well, Hans Belllmer living today in the USA style


surreal but very real


just an average america man living out his last days on earth


harry sturgeon

The second one is simply poetic!

Mass Graven Image

What a great collection of resources, thank you for giving the level of effort and background for each actual link provided @ State_Of_Exception great shares and postings.
Thanks also to Balor/SS1535 for your participation by sharing the video, excellent find.

So I have dealt with an individual in my personal life that suffered from the Gang stalking delusion and I understood very early once coming back into contact with a childhood friend later on in life that was fully under its yoke that it's a very bizarre but extremely vivid form of departure from reality that these folks experience.
So my friend, Wes was extremely out there, especially in his staunch almost fanatical belief that he was under some kind of harassment campaign and was actually just abusing meth and his brain was not the type that needed prolonged stimulus and or sleep deprivation due to the fact that he very likely was schizo-effective already.
He was always doing the car shit, thinking that people would drive by his house. I would say yeah they live down the street and would show him that exact car in the driveway of a house a few blocks down, to no avail of course in the convincing him to chill out. Harder still was when he would make claims that impossible things had taken place, like people passing through solid walls to come snoop around in his belongings. I would ask him if he believed that "they" were sending the X-men to fuck with you, just trying to express the level of absurdity to him. It was a real nightmare for the people he lived with, some family members who were bewildered by the detached and insane shit that Wes believed. He at one point spread baking flour across the entire tiled floor on the first story of the home that he stayed in, in order to "catch their footprints" as well he was constantly setting up booby traps that his unsuspecting in laws would be injured by, sometimes seriously due to being elderly.
The last time I saw him I was sure he would meet his demise as his deranged activity was becoming, it was a rainy day mostly drizzle that I was pulling into his driveway and see Wes outside at the side of his home with the main circuit breaker panel's door propped open, and he is fiddling with it with a screwdriver in his hand. I immediately screamed at him "Stop before you die!" and boy it seemed like reality came home for the holidays, because he snapped out of his mental fog and came to. I asked him what in the world he was thinking of doing something that dangerous, he replied that "they, have been screwing with my electricity". In conclusion, I haven't heard from Wes since I had told him to seek some help because he was slowly and surely becoming more and more estranged from the reality we call generally OK mind state.
It's hard to explain how crazy making it is to deal with a person who is that grandiose to think that the whole CIA or whatever is so vested into their existence, which is making zero effect in the world. That is the root of the issue is actually narcissism at its core. I feel for them, I do and can have a heart, but sure don't think I could bear having to live with a person who is suffering that shit.

tiny_tove

amazing thread. will check it at length, but thanks for the digs
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Cementimental

not the craziest but always enjoyed this electronics/surveillance/ufo mail order operation with an approach to CEO, html and product description that veers into House of Leaves territory:
Consumertronics.net
www.techzonics.com
www.lonestarconsultinginc.com

QuoteSINGLE WORDS: The abductees. The abductions. The abductors. The advice. The advise. The aliens. The analysis. The analyze. The attacks. The aura. The auras. The automatons. The biofeedback. The biocontrol. The blasters. The body-mind. The brainwash. The brainwashed. The brainwashing. The brainwaves. The breadboarding. The bugs. The build. The calibrated. The calibrations. The circuits. The coaching. The consultants. The consulting. The control. The controllers. The countermeasures. The create. The customized. The customizing. The debug. The debugging. The designs. The develop. The development. The devices. The diathermy. The document. The documenting. The dowsers. The eavesdroppers. The EEG. The electrical. The electricity. The electroencephalograph. The electroencephalogram. The electronics. The energy. The engineer. The engineering. The enigmas. The entities. The entrainment. The equipment. The evaluate. The evaluation. The extrasensory. The extraterrestrials. The fakery. The faking. The flashers. The formant. The fortean. The frauds. The ghosts. The ghostbusters. The ghostbusting. The hardware. The healing. The hieronymus. The hypnosis. The hypnotic. The implants. The "infrared." The infrasonics. The infrasounds. The instructions. The instrument. The integrate. The inventions. The ir. The jammers. The jamming. The lasers. The levitators. The lonestarconsultinginc.com.
The magnetometers. The maintenance. The medical. The meditation. The merchandise. The mind-body. The modify. The modification. The modifications. The neurophone. The neurophones. The neurophonic. The offers. The pemf. The phenomena. The phenomenon. The phobias. The pitch. The plans. The presence. The privacy. The products. The professionals. The programs. The prototyping. The psychokineses. The psychokinetic. The psionics. The radionics. The repair. The repairs. The reports. The reporting. The rife. The robotic. The robots. The schematics. The security. The Sedona. The services. The shrieker. The specialized. The stimulations. The stimulators. The spying. The surveillance. The survival. The taps. The technical. The telepathic. The telepathy. The tens. The testing. The therapy. The theremin. The transponders. The troubleshoot. The troubleshooting. The tutorials. The UFOs. The ultrasonics. The ultrasounds. The ultraviolet. The unexplained. The updated. The upgraded. The uv. The zappers.


Balor/SS1535

Quote from: Cementimental on May 09, 2024, 04:58:36 PMnot the craziest but always enjoyed this electronics/surveillance/ufo mail order operation with an approach to CEO, html and product description that veers into House of Leaves territory:
Consumertronics.net
www.techzonics.com
www.lonestarconsultinginc.com

QuoteSINGLE WORDS: The abductees. The abductions. The abductors. The advice. The advise. The aliens. The analysis. The analyze. The attacks. The aura. The auras. The automatons. The biofeedback. The biocontrol. The blasters. The body-mind. The brainwash. The brainwashed. The brainwashing. The brainwaves. The breadboarding. The bugs. The build. The calibrated. The calibrations. The circuits. The coaching. The consultants. The consulting. The control. The controllers. The countermeasures. The create. The customized. The customizing. The debug. The debugging. The designs. The develop. The development. The devices. The diathermy. The document. The documenting. The dowsers. The eavesdroppers. The EEG. The electrical. The electricity. The electroencephalograph. The electroencephalogram. The electronics. The energy. The engineer. The engineering. The enigmas. The entities. The entrainment. The equipment. The evaluate. The evaluation. The extrasensory. The extraterrestrials. The fakery. The faking. The flashers. The formant. The fortean. The frauds. The ghosts. The ghostbusters. The ghostbusting. The hardware. The healing. The hieronymus. The hypnosis. The hypnotic. The implants. The "infrared." The infrasonics. The infrasounds. The instructions. The instrument. The integrate. The inventions. The ir. The jammers. The jamming. The lasers. The levitators. The lonestarconsultinginc.com.
The magnetometers. The maintenance. The medical. The meditation. The merchandise. The mind-body. The modify. The modification. The modifications. The neurophone. The neurophones. The neurophonic. The offers. The pemf. The phenomena. The phenomenon. The phobias. The pitch. The plans. The presence. The privacy. The products. The professionals. The programs. The prototyping. The psychokineses. The psychokinetic. The psionics. The radionics. The repair. The repairs. The reports. The reporting. The rife. The robotic. The robots. The schematics. The security. The Sedona. The services. The shrieker. The specialized. The stimulations. The stimulators. The spying. The surveillance. The survival. The taps. The technical. The telepathic. The telepathy. The tens. The testing. The therapy. The theremin. The transponders. The troubleshoot. The troubleshooting. The tutorials. The UFOs. The ultrasonics. The ultrasounds. The ultraviolet. The unexplained. The updated. The upgraded. The uv. The zappers.


The prices on some of his products are insane (no pun intended... well, maybe...).  But I still want some.  They seem like they could even be used for noise!

Cementimental

Quote from: Balor/SS1535 on May 09, 2024, 06:14:36 PMThe prices on some of his products are insane (no pun intended... well, maybe...).  But I still want some.  They seem like they could even be used for noise!

Same. Half suspect it wouldn't even be possible to make an order. I really want THE SECRETS OF SOLDERLESS BREADBOARDS and some of the other electronics plans/"books" but not paying like $80 for a few photocopies ha

Balor/SS1535

Quote from: Cementimental on May 10, 2024, 02:06:21 AM
Quote from: Balor/SS1535 on May 09, 2024, 06:14:36 PMThe prices on some of his products are insane (no pun intended... well, maybe...).  But I still want some.  They seem like they could even be used for noise!

Same. Half suspect it wouldn't even be possible to make an order. I really want THE SECRETS OF SOLDERLESS BREADBOARDS and some of the other electronics plans/"books" but not paying like $80 for a few photocopies ha

Oh, I was talking about the $1700 seemingly illegal signal jamming gear!

Cementimental


theotherjohn

Also worth checking out his earlier website via the Internet Archive, especially his "comedy" section: bossmoneyco.com