Loneliness in noise?

Started by FreakAnimalFinland, January 25, 2026, 10:11:02 PM

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Balor/SS1535

Quote from: prolapsedlielack on January 26, 2026, 09:56:00 AMI can definitely say that noise/PE/DI has become a "coping mechanism" for me. Artists like Disgusting Sanctum/Agonal Lust, Atrax Morgue or Navicon Torture Technologies have helped quell some of the heavier negative moments in life. Plus the friends I've made through it/because of it and the current relationship I'm in being based on our mutual interest in it have been a great motivator for a curmudgeon like me.


Quote from: Balor/SS1535 on January 26, 2026, 03:51:34 AMI can say that some of the times that I feel the least lonely are when I am engaging with noise people at shows

Bingo to this, meeting you in person (on accident!) is still a hilarious moment for me.

haha  The total randomness of that whole night is still amazing to me!

FreakAnimalFinland

This type of thing is very important to most, including also myself. Of course I would survive without noise gigs, sure, but the gatherings of likeminded, that happens frequently enough, but NOT all the time, is good.

At least to me it feels that when you got month or two between seeing people, you actually got things to discuss. I ain't the type of guy sitting daily for coffee, or friends couch, talking whatever. No thanks. It is more like people discussing what is happening, planning, even sort of brainstorming. Perhaps invitations to collaborate or whatever. Then everybody goes on their own ways. Often somewhat vitalized by idea that there is actually small interests to what they do. Someone asked for compilation. Someone asked if planning any gigs. Someone talking about the best Merzbow CD you just finally managed to get. Sometimes absolutely nerdy stuff. Sometimes more serious. Yet, at least I can't take the non-stop social scene thing at all. There has to be the balance of when you talk and when you do. And if nothing gets done, what is there to talk about? It's not some sort of obligation, of course, but it would feel weird if I'd go to gig, someone asks what's happening lately and I would be like "nothing...".  It is without exception, when I return from noise gig, back home, there is intense will to create, play and record. Plan things and execute things. Yet, the certain amount of loneliness or at least being alone is mandatory to even get started anything worth doing. No point in jamming for fun, hah..
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MT

Great topic! I think loneliness, or solitude, is common among noise fans. Just by being such a niche thing to be interested about. I've talked about this with other people, how in a way I cherish those early days of "noise loneliness". There was no Facebook, was not into zine culture yet, Chrondritic Sound forum seemed a bit too intimidating, posted there couple times but mostly read what big boys were discussing. But there was no outlet personally to talk about noise, it created an interesting insular state of mind. Living in a small town back then, there was hardly anyone to talk about anything remotely intellectual. There was no outside "noise" to dictate what album is good and what's not. Created this unbiased taste in the beginnings. Observe record sleeves throughly, watch live pictures online to get some kind of idea what's going on. Ordering stuff from distros on a hunch, or by relation to some other project. I am very happy I got to experience my introduction to noise and power electronics this way, discovering and wondering. Waiting for each album to arrive like Christmas.

Nowdays it's completely different, Facebook groups are great for sharing favorite records, this forum naturally (which I should post more to) and even Whatsapp groups with likeminded brigade of noise heads. It's a great way to communicate and share ideas, whenever you feel like reading them and replying. I have no time to "hang out" with noise people every day or even every week. But like Mikko mentioned above, gigs are great places to share thoughts, ideas of new recordings, new live gigs and in general create bonds with people. Maybe the excitement of hunting and discovering is somewhat diluted, but I believe can also be achieved, just depends on the circumstances of an individual.

And to answer the question of the topic; yes and no. Loneliness is needed to create the mindset, but it can also be helpful to have other push me around every now and then.

Stipsi

#18
I always lived in  small villages with max 4k or less inhabitants on the hills.
Pretty isolated.
I'm not an antisocial person, but
loneliness and solitude is pretty common for me, both as "intent" and forced, because having peculiar artistic interests in places like mine, is not properly accepted.
I'm a solitary person for nature and this doesn't affect me at all.
Most of my free time I'm alone.
But honestly, as MT said, having forums and social media groups to share noise beliefs is a sorta of cathartic therapy.
At least for me.
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Stipsi

Quote from: MT on Today at 10:11:42 AMGreat topic! I think loneliness, or solitude, is common among noise fans. Just by being such a niche thing to be interested about. I've talked about this with other people, how in a way I cherish those early days of "noise loneliness". There was no Facebook, was not into zine culture yet, Chrondritic Sound forum seemed a bit too intimidating, posted there couple times but mostly read what big boys were discussing. But there was no outlet personally to talk about noise, it created an interesting insular state of mind. Living in a small town back then, there was hardly anyone to talk about anything remotely intellectual. There was no outside "noise" to dictate what album is good and what's not. Created this unbiased taste in the beginnings. Observe record sleeves throughly, watch live pictures online to get some kind of idea what's going on. Ordering stuff from distros on a hunch, or by relation to some other project. I am very happy I got to experience my introduction to noise and power electronics this way, discovering and wondering. Waiting for each album to arrive like Christmas.

Nowdays it's completely different, Facebook groups are great for sharing favorite records, this forum naturally (which I should post more to) and even Whatsapp groups with likeminded brigade of noise heads. It's a great way to communicate and share ideas, whenever you feel like reading them and replying. I have no time to "hang out" with noise people every day or even every week. But like Mikko mentioned above, gigs are great places to share thoughts, ideas of new recordings, new live gigs and in general create bonds with people. Maybe the excitement of hunting and discovering is somewhat diluted, but I believe can also be achieved, just depends on the circumstances of an individual.

And to answer the question of the topic; yes and no. Loneliness is needed to create the mindset, but it can also be helpful to have other push me around every now and then.

Hey, if there's WhatsApp and Telegram noise groups let me know!
Cheers!
North Central
Mademoiselle Bistouri
Cytokine Storm
Fistfun
Bleeding Cosmos
Daddy's Entertainment.
PERVERT AND PROUD.

dse666@yahoo.com

Atrophist

Quote from: Stipsi on Today at 12:17:36 PM
Quote from: MT on Today at 10:11:42 AMGreat topic! I think loneliness, or solitude, is common among noise fans. Just by being such a niche thing to be interested about. I've talked about this with other people, how in a way I cherish those early days of "noise loneliness". There was no Facebook, was not into zine culture yet, Chrondritic Sound forum seemed a bit too intimidating, posted there couple times but mostly read what big boys were discussing. But there was no outlet personally to talk about noise, it created an interesting insular state of mind. Living in a small town back then, there was hardly anyone to talk about anything remotely intellectual. There was no outside "noise" to dictate what album is good and what's not. Created this unbiased taste in the beginnings. Observe record sleeves throughly, watch live pictures online to get some kind of idea what's going on. Ordering stuff from distros on a hunch, or by relation to some other project. I am very happy I got to experience my introduction to noise and power electronics this way, discovering and wondering. Waiting for each album to arrive like Christmas.

Nowdays it's completely different, Facebook groups are great for sharing favorite records, this forum naturally (which I should post more to) and even Whatsapp groups with likeminded brigade of noise heads. It's a great way to communicate and share ideas, whenever you feel like reading them and replying. I have no time to "hang out" with noise people every day or even every week. But like Mikko mentioned above, gigs are great places to share thoughts, ideas of new recordings, new live gigs and in general create bonds with people. Maybe the excitement of hunting and discovering is somewhat diluted, but I believe can also be achieved, just depends on the circumstances of an individual.

And to answer the question of the topic; yes and no. Loneliness is needed to create the mindset, but it can also be helpful to have other push me around every now and then.

Hey, if there's WhatsApp and Telegram noise groups let me know!
Cheers!

Not to presume or butt in, but I second this. I've come to absolutely despise "normal" social media -- although as someone who organizes shows I can't get away from it altogether.