Quote from: xdementia on December 30, 2011, 06:35:51 AM
The frustration I write about is what led me to explore the sound in the beginning.
No doubt everybody had different motives. For example, I wrote more about that in interview with me which should issue soon in TERROR zine, when I was five, I lived with my parents in picturesque, upland outskirts of a town located in a region of Poland with many Soviet military bases with airfield for military aircraft. The aircraft would fly over the hill and one day, while playing outside, I saw a huge shadow around me. I raised my head and saw an enormous MiG-27, literally a few dozen meters above me. Since the plane was flying very fast, the roaring of the engines came a while later. It was a terrifying, piercing noise. Obviously, it really scared me and, crying, I ran to my mum. It was terrible experience for me but after some years I liked it. Next, when I was a teenager, I saw Andrzej Wajda's film "The Promised Land", a story of a rising Polish industrial city in the 19th century's raw capitalism. Its many visual and sonic elements drew my attention. They were about old factories, machinery at work and helplessness of an individual confronted with the new, industrial environment. At the time I used to go on school trips to local industrial sites and with great interest I looked at and listened to textile mills and industrial automation facilities. I loved these sounds and I didn't think about frustration then, I wasn't conscious about all that anticulture, industrial music, antisystem activities. My "frustration" against popular music, which I hated indeed, were such groups like PINK FLOYD, KING CRIMSON and so on, who were for me an antidote for pop music then. So, it wasn't frustration but something like fascination this kind of beauty. Only in Polish langauage and in history of art works the term "turpizm" as category of aesthetics consisting in perceiving all ugliness in our life and nature as classic beauty. So it would be reason for me, not frustration.
You had different impressions, which I don't want to question. I questioned only your thesis about frustration what I understood that you consider only this reason listening noise music.
Quote from: xdementia on December 30, 2011, 06:35:51 AM
For instance, you say noise is like water and air - by which I assume you mean almost akin to a survival need - yet if you don't breathe you suffocate, and if you don't drink you dehydrate. So was there some kind of intense need on a survival level to hear noise/industrial music before you discovered it? If so, how did this need manifest itself?
My comparison was too much pathetic... I didn't mention breath and water (and noise) as factors to survive, but something like a natural reaction of my body.
