Underground cultures are way much more consumerists in the material sense than mainstream culture, who are just streaming shit these days (which they pay for with giving attention to ads etc). If you feel such an urge to contribute something beyond your money to the scene to feel part of it, but cannot get around to actually creating something and in the end feeling shit about it - get over it. Hardly constructive, but that's all I can say. Considering how incredibly much is released in all genres today, I wish more people would get over it. Everyone can do what they like, but if you haven't got anything to say, there's no idea forcing it. Read somewhere a quote about being a writer, saying that the only reason a person should become a writer is not wanting to be one, but having to be a writer. In this context, and many others, it becomes pretentious ("oh! my artistic soul cannot be quenched! I must create!"), but modified, it applies to all forms of creativity. If you should do something - create industrial noise for example - you'd know it, and you'd do it. Wanting to do it because it's something you "should" do to fit in or whatever, well again, get over it. If you really want to create sth, just get shit done. This kind of music should be among the easiest to attempt and fail not so miserably that you'd have to kill yourself.