When I said whatever about "...do[ing] whatever the fuck I want", I didn't mean being able to jack off to gay serial killer websites, not that there's anything wrong with that, but I meant more that I want to be free from being forced at gunpoint to do things that I don't want to do. I don't want to be reduced to living a life centred around forced and rigidly structured hard labour -- I've done enough of that, working in a steel yard in northern Canada, cutting steel outside in -40*C for fourteen hours a day, among other back breaking hard labour jobs I've held.
I've also nowhere mentioned equality. I accept natural hierarchies in terms of intelligence, strength, talent, etc. and also in terms of Human Biodiversity. I accept that most of the herd needs something - hard (alienated) labour, religion, ideology, a gun in their backs - to keep them "in line" or at least occupied. I understand that it will always be a small, aristocratic minority for whom freedom, in any true sense, would even be possible. But for that to happen, we would need to break down the barriers and institutions which often keep superior beings locked within a class, caste, prison, etc., and for the opposite reasons put the feeble and inferior in positions of power, like priesthood, politics, the officer class in military orders, cops, etc. Social mobility should be based on ones potential or ability, or talent entirely, and not in the sense of ones talent at playing the roles and jumping through hoops of the dominant social order. This is why I'm an individualist, and I don't mean that in any sort of American or classical liberal kind of sense. I am against the spectacular-commodity economy, though enthralled with it as anyone else here (we're a community of commodity collectors, right?), and I understand that it needs to be transcended. I just don't think that any alternatives to the gigamachine (to update Mumford's term) are possible at the moment, largely due to overpopulation and the depth of the market's colonization of everyday life. Everything is just too big, and the bigger things get, the smaller the chance that the foreseeable future will hold anything but more of the same.
If fascism can present itself as a force capable of, and proves itself effective in, reducing our numbers, our reliance on prostheses for our survival, our impact on wilderness, and the rule of the economy, then on those points, and for the (hypothetical) time being, I'm more than willing to go along with it. Those are things I care about outside of myself, although it is easy to argue that those things do effect my everyday life directly. But the second fascism, or anything for that matter, stands in my way to live my life as I please, I will go up against it, or beneath it, or around it, whatever makes more sense to me in that situation.
I've already discussed the historical link between fascism and anarchism, individualist or otherwise, but even more contemporaneously there has been some synthesis of these antithetical ideas, such as Bowden's praise of Stirner, Troy Southgate and the NA people, etc.
And more than that, I fetishize violent underground resistance groups/movements of all sorts, even Maoists! and I hate Maoists and their ilk above all. So it's not hard for me to find things I appreciate about disparate positions and dispositions, even those to which I am diametrically opposed, so I will go on collecting and worshipping the cultural artifacts of radical right wingers, like yourself, and those of the radical left-communists, and Rock Against Communism, and so on and so forth ad infinitum. And I'll continue to consider myself a political non-euclidean. And I'll continue to wear a Totenkopf on my cap and get called a fascist and worse by punks and pink bellied lefties, and also I'll continue to assert my sovereignty, and argue that others should as well, and get libelously labelled a lefty/liberal/humanist on the internet, recently often by artists whose music and visual art I strongly admire! ;) My positions aren't pulled out my ass, and people won't convince me to abandon them so easily, but I'm more than willing to continue to engage with people who hold positions that differ from, or are even strongly against mine, and discuss our points of contention, and our common ground. I'll do it gladly.