Had a 3 day ayahuasca ceremony this weekend in the woods. As for the times before when I had aya, it was outside, with some couple friends, walking around or so, so it's been completely different now. Drinking it after the sun goes down and sitting in a completely dark room with all the windows covered and no light. No distractions, despite how you would want them - just you yourself against yourself. It was guided by the shaman from Shipibo tribe Peru and his three apprentices of 5 years. Visuals, insights into yourself etc. And very intense. Absolutely it's not for the faint hearted I'd say. There was a guy, all cheerful and happy, said he has no problems, and arrived just for fun and experience. He left the very next morning, saying it was not for him. Other silent guy went crazy the third night, starting yelling to fuck off, give his life back, etc. (later he told that he had 6 devil-like beasts trying to eat him from outside and couldn't bare it.). So the third night was the most intense. The guy who was sitting next to me, we talked with him just before the third ceremony, he asked if I every feel any fear or anxiety after drinking it. I said yes of course. He said he never feels any fear at all. He felt it some years ago when he had problems in his personal life, and now - no. Doing tai chi during days or sleeping etc. After the third night started, he went away, took his car, drove away, police stopped him, took him to a hospital, and he showed where the ayahuasca ceremony was happening so the police came, but they were unbelievably good. They just asked if everyone is feeling ok, if we knew that ayahuasca is illegal in Lithuania, and went away. I guess the most interesting visual things to bring out of all this weekend was the visual when putting my hands together as if for prayer, fingers started becoming roots of a huge tree and it started growing up, and when it grows, I feel very weak, then all it melts away. And once again, whenever some bad trip is starting to happen, I just listen to icaros, putting hands together, the tree grows and it feels safe and secure.
I wouldn't say it's great experience, but the aftermath is absolute calmness and center in oneself. Still need time to digest and process all this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9yOrKNC7dM