No, no -- don't get me wrong. I am certainly not one of the people who like Pure's Sotos (oh god), nor am I looking for bits of "sadism". I must confess I've always had issues with the all-over-the-place aspect of his writing; as you said, a lot of it is about "decoding" him, which is sometimes fascinating and sometimes merely confusing and headache inducing. That said, I own and have read almost anything and everything by him and he is, in my opinion, one of the most fascinating people on this planet and someone whom I'd be thrilled to be a friend of, or at least meet once.
So, as I said, part of the reason I "put up" with (although I don't really like framing it this way) his jumbled/often very vague writing is because once there IS, in fact, a certain insight, sentence or even a mere usage of one specific word that makes me feel awestruck, I feel like it's so damn worth it. And so far it didn't "do" it for me, which I am very sad about. Yesterday night I encountered a bit about camgirls which I found interesting, but still.
I think it'd be great if we could indeed discuss specific sections of the text, which is something people almost never do online with his works. Perhaps it could help me appreciate Ingratitude more.